Name:Francesca or "Franny" Location: Beautiful *SO CAL*, United States Birthday:11/5/1985 Gender:Female
Interests:DANCING & CHEERING, having fun & being SILLY! SMILING & LAUGHING, chillin, workin out, trying/learning new things, food, rocking out at concerts, movies, SNOWBOARDING, & watching b-ball games Occupation:Student
dee1icious526 (8:11:21 PM): how much are the toys anyway FaNNyCHEESECAKE5 (8:11:58 PM): no clue but i think anywhere from 20-50 FaNNyCHEESECAKE5 (8:12:05 PM): depends on how high tech it is haha dee1icious526 (8:12:15 PM): isn't "the rabbit" like 100 FaNNyCHEESECAKE5 (8:12:24 PM): it is??? FaNNyCHEESECAKE5 (8:12:28 PM): i have no clue dee1icious526 (8:12:58 PM): cuz i remember when i went to europe..i saw it in a magazine dee1icious526 (8:13:11 PM): and i THINK it was close to 100 in us money FaNNyCHEESECAKE5 (8:14:10 PM): wow dee1icious526 (8:14:24 PM): not too sure though dee1icious526 (8:14:35 PM): would u get a vibrating one? dee1icious526 (8:14:43 PM): or a not vibrating one FaNNyCHEESECAKE5 (8:15:38 PM): vibrating FaNNyCHEESECAKE5 (8:15:43 PM): i'm too lazy to do all the work hahaha dee1icious526 (8:16:15 PM): HAHAHAH dee1icious526 (8:16:33 PM): thats hilarious dee1icious526 (8:16:41 PM): i wonder what movements it makes dee1icious526 (8:16:46 PM): or like if it makes sounds FaNNyCHEESECAKE5 (8:17:46 PM): haha i think it just goes buuzzzzz dee1icious526 (8:18:20 PM): lol dee1icious526 (8:18:42 PM): it'd be funny if there was a build-a-diLdo store dee1icious526 (8:18:47 PM): cuz then i'd record something for you dee1icious526 (8:19:15 PM): "oOoo francesssssca...oOoo more harderrrr oOoo" dee1icious526 (8:19:17 PM): hahah kidding FaNNyCHEESECAKE5 (8:19:18 PM): hahaha FaNNyCHEESECAKE5 (8:19:27 PM): this is so going on the xanga dee1icious526 (8:19:37 PM): omg
chill cubed (8:21:14 PM): ok this is a test chill cubed (8:21:16 PM): and you have to pass FaNNyCHEESECAKE5 (8:21:34 PM): and if i don't pass? chill cubed (8:21:55 PM): then you need to reevaluate your outlook on life chill cubed (8:23:00 PM): question 1) list three things you've accomplished in the last year chill cubed (8:23:11 PM): 2) list three people you've listened to FaNNyCHEESECAKE5 (8:23:16 PM): are you making this test up? hehe chill cubed (8:23:35 PM): 3) list three people that you've opened up to chill cubed (8:23:50 PM): okay go chill cubed (8:23:53 PM): you have to answer them FaNNyCHEESECAKE5 (8:24:37 PM): #2. you, carmen(good friend from hs), & michael FaNNyCHEESECAKE5 (8:24:55 PM): #3. cheryl (my cousin), dimitri (friend from ucla), & you chill cubed (8:26:26 PM): and #1? FaNNyCHEESECAKE5 (8:27:05 PM): #1. making stroke force, hitting my 1st jumps & rails in snowboarding, & being one of the best employees at baby gap hehe chill cubed (8:27:51 PM): so #1 is self-explanatory. it shows that you are driven chill cubed (8:28:02 PM): academically, athletically and socially chill cubed (8:28:16 PM): #2 shows that you are a good friend chill cubed (8:28:27 PM): you care about others and you are willing to put in yoru time to hear other people out chill cubed (8:28:51 PM): #3 are three people who obviously care about you chill cubed (8:28:54 PM): you are loved chill cubed (8:28:59 PM): so you passed the test
"Seems like just yesterday You were a part of me I used to stand so tall I used to be so strong Your arms around me tight Everything, it felt so right Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong Now I can't breathe No, I can't sleep I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again I'm torn into pieces Can't deny it, can't pretend Just thought you were the one Broken up, deep inside But you won't get to see the tears I cry Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything Opened up and let you in You made me feel alright For once in my life Now all that's left of me Is what I pretend to be So together, but so broken up inside 'Cause I can't breathe No, I can't sleep I'm barely hangin' on
Here I am, once again I'm torn into pieces Can't deny it, can't pretend Just thought you were the one Broken up, deep inside But you won't get to see the tears I cry Behind these hazel eyes
Swallow me then spit me out For hating you, I blame myself Seeing you it kills me now No, I don't cry on the outside Anymore...
Here I am, once again I'm torn into pieces Can't deny it, can't pretend Just thought you were the one Broken up, deep inside But you won't get to see the tears I cry Behind these hazel eyes"
I love Kelly Clarkson. She's so cute.
This has been such an rough, emotional week for me (the PMS didn't help either). I've just been consumed with all this negative energy - I've felt so broken, replaced, bitter, unecessary, and worthless. I hate being so self-conscious and insecure. Worrying about what other people think of me takes up so much of my energy. I've had it - I DON'T GIVE A FUCK ANYMORE.
One of the most disheartening feelings is to not believe in things anymore or at least think you don't. But what's worse is then you see things that cause that memory recall mechanism of your to kick into gear and images and emtions come flooding back to you all at once, reminding you that yes, those things do exist but you can't experience them at the moment.
On the brighter side ... I got two of the best pieces of advice that I have received in awhile:
1. "Girls need to be more assertive when it comes to dating. YOU need to be more assertive Fran." -Armen H.
2. "As selfish as it sounds, sometimes you just have to put yourself first Fanny" - Dima F.
